I can hear the echoes in my heart It's wondering why it can't feel anything, especially at this time of the year No regrets, no pain, no tearsJust numbI guess it's a completely new feeling It has spent most of the time grasping on emotions, from outside and within Always dealing with turmoil and drowning in hurt It doesn't know how to react with this sudden peace This peace that's a reaction from being tired of reacting, of feeling, of living Because living is pain And the pain has consumed my being Inch by inch, until it became the only known feeling Now two entities are at war inside of me, my head and my heart The logical part is saying it's about time this happenedMy heart wants its default function back And only I know, it will take a while before this thing inside my chest does anything else but beat.